| Tuesday, March 21st, 2006 |
| 6:19 pm |
Dinner dinner dinner dinner dinner dinner dinner dinner, BATMAN!
Yay, rehearsals for the new play start tonight.... BAT MAN the MUSICAL! It's going to be SO much fun.... I'm Alfrid, the Drug-addicted-pervy-pick pocketing-type butler. if you didn't guess it's a comidy done with as similar comic slant which taints such movies as Airplane. The end of term is comming up which means i'm going to have to work my ass off to get this assignment done in time seeing as i'm going to visit my little brother in a few weeks for paintballing. Any way, mush shoot off and get some food before rehearsals.... oh almost forgot i'm DJing tonight.... yay! Catch you all later. |
| Monday, February 13th, 2006 |
| 12:06 pm |
 | You scored as True Alternative. You are a True Alternative! Labels do not suit you well, particularly as you tend to strike your own path and to grow purely via experience. No armchair quarterbacking for you! Originality and creation are your specialities, and sometimes you can even articulate what the hell just happened. Someday you may find yourself drawing the maps for other people... lots of other people.
True Alternative | | 75% | Mystic | | 70% | Aimless Eclectic | | 60% | Magician | | 55% | White Lighter | | 55% | Discordian | | 55% | Otherkin | | 45% | Spiritualist | | 35% | </td>
What Subversive Alternative Paradigm Are You?
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| Tuesday, January 17th, 2006 |
| 6:00 pm |
| You scored as Theater. You should be a Theater major! Like a bohemian actress, you are seasoned and confident and not afraid to express yourself!
Theater | | 83% | Mathematics | | 83% | Art | | 75% | Philosophy | | 75% | Sociology | | 67% | Chemistry | | 58% | Dance | | 58% | Journalism | | 58% | Anthropology | | 42% | English | | 42% | Biology | | 42% | Psychology | | 42% | Engineering | | 33% | Linguistics | | 17% | </td>
What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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| Tuesday, February 1st, 2005 |
| 5:36 pm |
Next time i open my mouth and say i'm going to be happy just shoot me in the head! Single again.... you can laugh now. Current Mood:  depressedCurrent Music: anything by HIM |
| Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004 |
| 1:39 pm |
Long time.....
It's been some while since i've had the time or the energy to write in this journal. Everything just became too depressive to talk about! I'm better now... Quick update. I now have a girlfriend. We've been seeing each other for 2 months... Shock Horror this one might just be working. I have got the job working in Orange (SO I NO LONGER WORK FOR ANGLIAN WINDOWS... THANK FUCK)! I'm not as broke as I was over the summer. The Rock Society is the largest society in the college with over 120 members. I'm now one of the council officers in the union! Which gives me so much more to do now. Hence I will not be running for President of the rock society after New Years because I'm just too busy to do it now, also I've stopped enjoying it. Every day was a struggle to get things done. I do not like the way the society is set out now and i just feel like i've been rail - roaded out. If he thinks he can do better... he can have a try and i wish him luck. At the end of the day it means less stress for me. My goal was to make the rock society the largest society in the Union and I've done that. It's now time to pass on the torch! I'm quite busy with the officer work i'm doing now, sorting out all the equipment in the Union, re-wiring things and just generally making things easyer to use. I'm also writing up a technical manual for the Union's equipment so that there is something to reference incase things go wrong! So all in all i'm in a pretty good mood! I have a New Years Eve part at my place. If i've forgoten to invite you then come along. Just call me first so I have an idea of numbers. Take care everyone, G Current Mood:  thankfulCurrent Music: Chimeria - "Power Trip" |
| Saturday, August 21st, 2004 |
| 4:24 pm |
Argh!
Work is so soul destroying! It's the most tedious thing in the world to phone 300 numbers and ask if they want double glazing or a conservatory. My financial situation is laughable. My love life... don't ask...
So all's going well.
It's 's ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) metal_kate 's birthday today and I can't make it cause the party's in faversham. Other people are going but i seem to be getting left out of everything these days. Sorry Kate!
I have no money for alcohol and my house mate drank the last of my wine! I know there was only a glass or so left but I was really looking forward to drinking it. It's an expensive wine my parent's gave me cause they found it too sweet. Well i'm back on the bread and water then.
Safe to say life suck's at the moment! :-( I wana go to kate's party and get drunk!
Rant over... for now. But stay tuned as more shit is bound to happen!
-Gee- Current Mood:  pissed offCurrent Music: Pantera! Raghhh! |
| Friday, August 13th, 2004 |
| 2:35 pm |
WORK!!
Bloody work! It sux big time... I'm still looking for a job that's not going to do my head in! Oh well I'm sure i'll live. Although Tele-sales and marketing is more hard work than I first thought. Apparently the old boss was really layed back and this new one is not so layed back... shouting at us to get more leads... Which is quite hard seeing as people hang up on you all the bloody time! Anyway it's all money at the end of the day. I'm still hoping for this job with Orange!
It's Lee, Andy, Lucy and Gemma's house warming tonight... I have no money for booze so i'll be soberall night! Yay...
( Huge picture of me! )
Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: Luke Smith "It's Not Wrong... It's Just Different" |
| Friday, August 6th, 2004 |
| 12:39 pm |
Melina
Well I had a great few days with Melina. I quite like her but I don't think that we'd ever go out because she's worried about the distance between us. Which true could be a worry. I'm in a weird frame of mind at the moment. I don't want to be single anymore. But I don't want anyhting too heavy. Which is ofcause the preblem with seeing someone who lives in canterbury or even goes to my uni. A long distance relationship would suit my current frame of mind perfectly. You get to miss that person for the few weeks or even a month when you don't see them and that feeling of knowing you'll be seeing them soon can make you so focused on your work or studies that the time just flys by! But when you do get to see them every moment becomes so special... Every touch becomes worth the wait... Every kiss is like your first kiss! But it's always the way... Maybe I set my sights too high? The people I want never think i'm quite right for them and the people who want me I find arn't quite right for me. Some times I wish that just once I could win. So for now I wait... But i'll always remember her kiss! Pourquoi pleut-il toujours sur moi? -G- Current Mood: lonelyCurrent Music: HIM - "Sweet 666" |
| Saturday, July 10th, 2004 |
| 11:31 am |
Ouch
Soooo hung over!!!! Gemma got her results yesterday so we all went out and got quite drunk, then we went to a house party and then came back to mine and drank lots of wine and vodka... mixing is EVIL! I'm off to find a cool rock to hide under... -Gee- Current Mood: uncomfortableCurrent Music: Hangover music - Zack Wilde |
| Wednesday, July 7th, 2004 |
| 1:22 pm |
Another random test thingy....
Um.... It could almost be true. !!!Warning these bloody things are addictive so don't try it at home!!! A little change to Slytherin and... -G- Current Mood:  awakeCurrent Music: Placebo - Nancy Boy |
| Sunday, June 27th, 2004 |
| 5:39 pm |
Home!
I'm at my parents. Boring. I can't do much work on my bike as I can't seem to get the parts I want to off the bike! I'll have to get it finished tomorrow. Nothing really happening at the moment. Although I was asked out friday by someone. I had to say no. I don't think she took it too well. I don't know why but I just couldn't say yes, even though I wanted too. The thought of going out with someone is scaring... no it's petrifying me! I'm so confused when it comes to girls. -Gee- |
| Monday, June 21st, 2004 |
| 5:04 pm |
Finaly the rush is over!
I'm now a first year FRTV student (Film, Radio and TV)! So my academic worries are over! Yay! However after doing science for three years I now have three more years to go... the difference is i'm going to enjoy these next three years! The summer ball is done and dusted! The Unplugged stage went really well and the bands went down a treat! Also Puja and Lee's DJing kept everyone on their feet till 6 am!!! What a summer ball! We started setting up the ball at 11am friday (although I was up at 9:45am), we had the ball and ran the stage flawlessly (spelling?!?) from 9 pm unlill 6am saturday morning! We then finished packing up by 10am and finally me and Ian had to wait up untill the Penny Theater opened at 12ish to return the monitors we borrowed from them. Aurg! Then I decieded to watch 10th kingdom all the way through! I had to stay up for as long as possible otherwise I would have woken up and some silly time! So anyway that was my Fri/saturday. On sunday I saw Harry Potter! It was good. but for some reason i was expecting more. Now i suppose you're all wondering about my love life??? Well I still haven't found one yet! My heads still a bit of a mess about things like that... I try not to think about the lonelyness and shit like that... It doesn't help and i'm not really lonely anyway. I have friends around me! Well see you guys around! -Gee- Current Mood: calmCurrent Music: My Ruin - "Rockstar" |
| Monday, June 7th, 2004 |
| 5:55 pm |
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| Monday, May 24th, 2004 |
| 10:50 am |
Ball is rolling.
Spoke to the counciler today... Didn't really get much out of it... I'm going to keep going just to see if it'll work. But she did tell me i'm doing all the right things. A few days ago me and Dina stopped being friends. We're each others worst enemy's. I realosed that this is the only way past this problem... How ever yesterday she was telling me how she wanted me back... And how she couldn't cope with just being friends... Which is why we stopped being friends (so it was a pointless statment)... However soon after that message she said that if being friends was all she could have then she'll take that and asked me if we could be friends again. I said yes. I worried i'm being set up for another fall. Especially as I know what she's been saying to everyone in the hobgoblin about me! Which isn't true by the way... Dina why did you say all those things to everyone? -Email me about it- Well the ball is rolling for my change of course. I told my parents. They where not happy. After I explained my feelings to them they said that they'd back my decition. So now it's all hands to the breaches, time to fill out paperwork and stop playing with this infernal computer! Wish me luck... i'm going in! -G- Current Mood:  crazyCurrent Music: Spineshank |
| Thursday, May 20th, 2004 |
| 2:10 pm |
That's It!
Finally I've had the balls to do it. I'm changing my course. This is something I've been wanting to do for 2 years. After I finished my foundation science course I could have gone on to do RFTV (Radio, Film and Television) Studies. I should have done that. For the passed 2 years I've been trying to do this bloody science Degree... I've go to the point where I hate it! I have no motivation and no drive for science. I want to be creative like I was in the past. I have felt so bottled up over the past few years, It's been like loosing the ability to speak. Just the thought of moving to a different degree has cheered me up slightly! I do feel like a failed.. which to a point i suppose i have. But i've been saying for 2 years now that i want to do RFTV. So I'm doing it now. I'm not waiting any longer... Now is the time for me to do what I want! -G- Current Mood: excitedCurrent Music: RUSH - "2112" |
| Monday, May 17th, 2004 |
| 11:45 am |
One Week!
What an eventful week. Me and Dina made friends last Friday. We realised that nether of us are comfortable seeing each other with other people. So we decided that for this time while we’re working on our friendship that we will not see anyone. This way we can focus on our friendship. It was great, we fooled around, laughed, joked and sat in the penny theatre pub at lunch time drinking and putting Rock music in the juke box to scare the other people. Now we also became fuck buddies. Well, we couldn’t see other people so why not take out all our sexual frustration on each other. It all worked out for the best. At about the same time (last Friday) I started to develop tension headaches. Well when I say headaches, I only had the one but it wouldn’t go away. It’s still here right now putting pressure on my head. But It doesn’t hurt anymore. I went to the Doctor after 5 days of this and he put me on Diazepam and extra strong painkillers. Now my head still hurt. These pills numbed the pain slightly. But alas I couldn’t revise. So now I sit here writing this when I have my exam in 2 and a half hours. I have none NO revision for it at all! I was supposed to do like a mega revision session yesterday. But NO! On Saturday night Dina had to break her promise to me. She was all over Liz right in my face all night! Making it damn fucking clear that they where going back to Dina’s to fuck! Now that hurt. I tried asking her to wait. To be with this girl after we’ve sorted out our friendship. But she ignored me. She deliberately hurt me. I couldn’t revise yesterday. I felt hurt and betrayed! She lied to me and broke our promise right in front of me the day before I’m supposed to get my head together after this tension problem and revise! I whet around to see Dina. She cooked me dinner. We talked and I cried. She knows me so well. She just twisted everything around and made things alright again. But things weren’t alright! Things started to click in my head last night. My dearest friends and housemates helped me to see sense. Helped me to realise how much I was being manipulated. I spoke to Liz this morning. She told me that Her and Dina where actually an item! What hurts is the fact that this shouldn’t be happening. What hurts is the fact that I’ve realised that I’ve forgiven and forgot about that time with Chris. I WANTED HER BACK! Now she’s just kicked sand in my face, because she lied to me because she can’t keep her knickers under control. I thought I could at least trust her but she used me! And I never thought Liz could lie to me! What a week! “But for now I’ll stand up tall And never sigh or moan. As my life continues, As I go to bed alone.” [Gordon Burns © 2004] Current Mood: crappyCurrent Music: Fuck all! |
| Friday, May 14th, 2004 |
| 7:41 pm |
Stresses to the MAX!
Well you know I said this exam stuff was stressing me out! Well I've been suffering from a stress headache now for the passed week! That's one week of quite agonising pain! It feels as if I wearing a hat that's on too tight!
I went to the doctor on Wednesday and he's given me some pills... Some kick-ass strength Co-codamol and a relaxing pill things. Problem is it's not working all that well. My head is still hurting and the pills are making my dopey! I'm just very passive at the moment. I've got an exam on Monday and I don't think I'm going to be ready for it!
Last night we had unplugged. But due to licensing difficulties we had to find another venue! So KIAD very nicely allowed us to use their bar. The night went down a treat. Although we had a few problems working out how to wire up their AMP system cause it was unfamiliar to us (thanks very much to the cool dude with the dreads for helping me out on that one - I think his name was Andy). We had a guy called Eden James playing. He came all the way from Australia to play at our little unplugged night. Click on his name to see his web site and then you'll see in the gig listing that Canterbury Christchurch Uni is down on his gig listings. Well that's my brush with fame!
However we where led to believe by Matt Winter, the guy who organises all this stuff at our union, that we where supposed to have record company PR execs coming along, but unless they where hidden away in the audience then they didn't turn up. Also there was talk about a BBC camera crew? But alas there was nothing... And I even did my hair.
I tell you what; it's time for a bitch! I haven't had a proper bitch in ages! Matt Winter... He gets paid by the union to do stuff. He is the Entertainments manager. That involves advertising and organising of certain events. Now the C4 Unplugged night comes under his jurisdiction. But Ian and myself run the night (with of cause the magical assistance of Puja!) and we do not get paid! Now all we wanted from Matt was for some advertising to be done about the fact that the Unplugged had moved from C4 Student Union to KIAD bar... He's paid to do this stuff.... where was our bloody advertisement? I mean, don't get me wrong I LOVE doing unplugged but both me and Ian are in the middle of exams! We need to revise and do these exams... not run around trying to sort out his incompetent mess! He's also running the summer ball... Shame I can't be ther eto help out.... actually no it's not a shame... I'd love to watch him panic as he tries to sort out problems which he normaly leaves me and ian to fix... ;-p
Why do the bad things all happen at once! I've hurt one of my best friends. I love her so much, I promised that I would never hurt her and in yet another act of my own extreme stupidity I've messed things up and hurt her so badly. I wish there was something I could do to help mend this bridge. But I fear that she'll never speak to me again. It hurts not being her friend. It hurts even more knowing I deserved it!
On the plus side Dina and me have made friends now... This time it looks like it'll last. Yay!
Well another mixed post full of confusion.
TTFN,
-Gee-. Current Mood: disappointedCurrent Music: Lost prophets - Last train home |
| Thursday, May 6th, 2004 |
| 11:53 am |
I was actually able to do some revision yesterday. God, things arn't going well are they? My heads a messed up jumble of crap. This Dina things going too far and getting me down. I tried since we split up to be friends and on some occations when we're together we can laugh and joke and have a good time. But it's just got to me. I've tried to be friends and all of got in return is Dina bitching to everyone how much i hurt her with her calling me that jerk of an Ex... Not exactly the type of person I want to be friends with... We'll the balls in her court. So back to reality... Don't like reality. I like being happy... But I can't seem to find it anywhere. Current Mood: sadCurrent Music: Nothing But Silence |
| Wednesday, May 5th, 2004 |
| 7:54 pm |
Down the drain.
I want to the doctors, she gave me leaflets and info on poor sleeping. She's also told me I should see a councillor about everything. How messed up is that. I didn't think I would need to do that. Last thing I need is some crackpot trying to pump me with drugs and sedate me. She said that I was showing signs of depression. If it doesn't rain it pours! -G- Ancient Oriental Proverb; "That was Zen. This is Tao." Current Mood: depressedCurrent Music: Check it out. No longer listening to HIM. |
| 12:58 pm |
Endless nights of nothing but thought.
After waking from another night of practically no sleep, I decided to take action.
I’ve booked an appointment with the doc about my insomnia. I’m quite sure that it’s not a physical problem because I’ve had trouble sleeping since Dina left, but I was told that the doc’s is the first place I should go.
Who knows what’ll happen. I’ve just no energy for anything… I don’t want to take these exams… I don’t even want to be doing this degree! Argh!!! Life is really starting to suck. I tried revising and all I could do is stare at the papers. I couldn’t understand any of it! My exam’s on Monday and I’ve also got some assignments to do. Where’s my motivation? I don’t like feeling like this because it depresses me and the more depressed I get, the less motivation I have. HELP ME!!!!
-G- Current Mood:  tiredCurrent Music: New Blaze Album “Blood and Belief” |
